Weight

It sucks not being able to talk to the one person you want to talk to.

It sucks that by being there actually adds up to the weight.

If you weren’t around, would it make it lighter for them?

Having

Have you ever had that feeling;
something you have always wanted your whole life
fell onto your lap?

Something so precious
without the feelings disappearing once you held it
unlike things you own that is left on a shelf or a cupboard
forgotten after the want was satisfied.

A wise man once said
"True happiness is... to enjoy the present, without anxious dependence upon the future."
having that something gave true happiness
but it was never mentioned if the present will remain forever.

This future is an unknown variable
a perception of time taught to explain what comes after
a terrifying idea caused by the fear of the unknown
with no knowledge on what will happen to anything, or everything.

With greater value, comes greater loss
we take great care of something based on the fear that we might lose it
we do our best for our own idea of preciousness to remain.

When the moment arrives
when it is destined that you will be parted with that one precious thing
lots of people have tried to put it into words
in books, in poems or in movies.

However detailed it may be
no one else except for you will understand how it felt
how it felt like to have something that you've always wanted your whole life
and have it taken away.

Truth

People believe in something because it is parallel to their own beliefs; aligned to what they want to be true. 

With belief, comes expectations. When it is different than what you saw in your head, an arbitrary reference point is created and automatically makes you judge based on your own imaginary reference on what it should be.

A child told about a beautiful place somewhere (since he's able to talk and understand) would find it difficult to believe if the place is a dump when he is shown a picture of it; or went to the place when he grows up.

Is anything true?

Concidit

Black sky in the night

Without stars - absence of light

Something, nothingness.

Feelings overflow;

Affected by judgemental,

Blunt accusations.

Conscious decisions -

Are we really sentient?

Or controlled since birth

Love is operose;

A butterfly effect, which

Encumbers choices.

To exist without

Trepidation; in the now.

Is that so dreadful?

Tak lek

Some people are so tak lek. Woi. Lek la woi.

I should post things like this on Twitter but I refuse.

Everyone in this country dah semakin tak lek. Ok let me define 'tak lek' for you. Tak means no/not, and lek is a short form of relax. Meaning tak lek means not chilled or not calm.

With the increasing usage of social networking sites (Twitter Facebook etc), everyone has their own medium to express their opinions and show it to the world.

Nowadays, there are a lot of things happening in Malaysia, for example the picture of two individuals wishing selamat berpuasa while eating bak kut teh, the selamat hari raya video with the dog and a lot more.

The law enforcers took the matter very seriously and some of them ended up with jail time, even though some of the more liberal people think that what they did were just minor mistakes.

Surprisingly, suddenly a lot of users on Twitter and Facebook has their own opinion on the matter and decided to post their opinions online for everyone to read. And some of them didn't even do any research before posting their 'opinions' (but were very firm on their beliefs). They posted it on the grounds that they read some blog (with an unknown source).

Some people just post stuff that they feel people wanted to hear instead of facts, and get lots of support and likes and retweets (because that's what society is like nowadays. They only listen to what they want to hear.)

Yes, you are entitled to your own opinion. But isn't it wrong to say something that's not even close to the truth? Isn't it wrong to say something that may hurt other's feelings? To hate and hate and hate?

If you say "oh it's my twitter I can tweet whatever I want its my mouth I can say whatever I want" ah kau ingat ni lagu Miley Cyrus ke apa.

If you truly feel there's something wrong with the system or anything, go through the right medium to fix it. Run for parliament or whatever else that makes you be heard by the government. Not just by ranting on social sites (and annoying everyone else who does not have the same views as you).

And if you have views, give facts. Real facts. And keep the opinion professional. Nak debat tak salah pun, ada medium lain pulak.

And oh yeah, one more thing. Social sites are not to be taken too seriously. Some people joke around a lot and not everything they say means anything. Some people post hate statuses because this other guy posted a joke he didn't get. Tak lek langsung.

You don't have power over their tweets or posts but you do have power over the posts you read. - @mediha_m

If I've offended anyone who read this post, I apologize. And please do correct me if I'm wrong.

"Judging others is only human, but keeping your opinions to yourself is class."

So keep it classy people. Lek.

I'm a space bound

We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous, you must be a sorceress
Cause you just, did the impossible, gained my trust
Don't play games it'll be dangerous if you fuck me over
Cause if I get burnt, I'ma show ya what it's like to hurt
Cause I've been treated like dirt befo' ya
And love is "evol", spell it backwards, I'll show ya

Nobody knows me, I'm cold, walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own, it's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion what'so ever, so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these mo'fuckin' hoes

Blood-suckin' succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department, but, I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be like tryin' to start over
I've got a hole in my heart from some kind of emotional roller-coasta'; 
Somethin' I won't go on till you toy with my emotions, so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold ya, wasn't jokin' when I told ya
You take my breath away, you're a supernova
And I'm a... 

(Chorus)

I'm a space-bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
Right at you

(Verse 2)

I'll do whatever it takes, when I'm with you, I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't with you, I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think's
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em, it's never the same
You want 'em when they don't want you, soon as they do, feelin's change
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate
I wasn't lookin' when I stumbled onto you, musta been fate
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take, let's cut to the chase
'Fore the door shuts in your face, promise me if I cave in and break
And leave myself open that I won't be makin' a mistake
Cause I'm a

(Chorus)

I'm a space-bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
Right at you

(Verse 3)

So after a year and 6 months, it's no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you, let down my guard, swear to God
I'll blow my brains in your lap, lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleadin', I'm tryin' to stop you from leavin'
You won't even listen, so fuck it, I'm tryin' to stop you from breathin'
I put both hands on your throat, I sit on top of you, squeezin'
Til' I snap your neck like a Popsicle stick, ain't a possible reason
I can think of to let you walk up out this house and let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks, then I let you go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple, I told you this

(Bridge)

And I would've did anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now, it's too late to save our
Love
Just promise me you'll think of me
Every time you look up in the sky and see a star
Cuz I'm a

(Chorus)

I'm a space-bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles and a clear night in June
And I'm so lost without you
Without you
Without you

Space Bound - Eminem

Ask ask ask

Hello and welcome everyone to this not-so-wonderful blog where I write nonsense and random shiznits yes I am that awesome sorry I am narcissistic but I'm a nice narcissistic yes I don't know what I'm talking about.

Hi today I'm gonna tell you something. Something's that been bothering me for quite some time. Well, its not that bad but, its kinda.... bad but what the heck.

You guys know the website called www.ask.fm? Its a website for random people to ask you questions about anything anonymously or you can state your name if you have an account. Its quite similar to www.formspring.me but I'm not sure why people prefer this over formspring. Dunia makin maju katanya.

Okay.

I'm not saying I'm hot or anything ok tak hot pun sebenarnya but I've received a lot (and I mean A LOT) of questions on this website. Ok most of them are like insults saying I'm fat but whatever some of them are really creepy wey sumpah.

One of them (or more I don't know they're anonymouses) keep asking me questions about my life and what I did during the holidays and some of them ask me personal questions about my friends la apa la. I mean, HOW DO YOU GUYS KNOW THESE THINGS.

Some of them sounded like "Olan do you like me?" "Olan, i like you in the most platonic way, i hope I wasn't leading you on" "Olan yu so fetz" "Olan kenapa nak lepak dengan Ha Latep"

Wtf.

I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE. PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME.

One night, I received a total of 48 questions.YES ONE NIGHT. NOT DAY. NIGHT. And the anons who asked me questions started fighting against each other because one of them were messing with the other anon by contradicting to their question and acting like its the other anon, then the other anon called the anon a bitch then the other anon emo lak. Then suddenly nama orang lain pulak masuk, (wafie), then takpasalpasal one of the anons kutuk that guy! I was like what. Ok. Yeah do it here memang my page untuk korang kutuk orang pun.

I was sick and had flu when I received the questions and It quite messed with my head. Some of them posed as someone else la why do they do that? Are you trying to ruin my friendship with someone? What are your motives? What is your objective? WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO ANY OF YOU

But it's okay. I'm okay. I answer every single question (eventhough some of them aren't really questions but weird sounds typed in) except for the ones asking about my personal and private things.

The website is supposed to be fun and helps us know each other better as we see how people answer to unfamiliar people's questions. Don't ruin it by trying to ruin someone's friendship or anything like that. I love my friends and I wouldn't want to lose any of them.

I'm very sorry if I've offended any of the anons with my sarcastic answers. Its all fun and games.

I think that's all for today. Good night guys woot woot