Herro

Well hello again there, audience. Ok tak tak that's tobuscus' line. It's been so long (its been so long~ that i haven't seen your face~) since i came here. Fuh dah lama. But I AM HERE AT LAST HUERGHHUERGHHUEGRH ok tak tak.

Life has been treating me well. Good food, good company, crazy fast internet connection, the stuff. It has been quite the holiday for me, and now its almost the last two weeks of holiday. AND I HAVEN'T TOUCHED A SINGLE BOOK (study materials, duh). Argh hau la laik dis

Yesterday I went to the Big Bad Wolf Booksale at the Mines Convention Centre. Whoa laik siriusly the books there are crazy cheap, mostly RM8 and RM12 and I bought four books, for a merely RM32. So cheappp~. Its the 22nd, there's Nabil's sister's wedding today, and in the afternoon, i'll be heading to Taiping with my friend Imran for another wedding, and I'm coming back on the 23rd. Ni dah kira tiga hari dah. BILA NAK STUDY?

Okay ni mcm salah gambar je. Scarlett is not surprised. Its supposed to be this.

Yes that's more like it.

Anyway, I've got all my offers from Soton, Cardiff, Sheffield and Bristol (except for UCL coz they rejected me sob sob sorry la AS teruk) and it was supposed to make me want this harder. Yeap its true what they say, nothing can change you except for yourself. I know this, because i'm not ready for a change. Perhaps when I get back to KY, I'm gonna be this super kiasu super saiya person studying all the way no more lepak lepak cafe at night no more (no more no more no more no more~) so goodbye friends, see you in the fab lane.

I'm trying my best to be a good house captain too. It's always busy in KY, events and all, and plus the house cup, ergh argh so sakit so painful hieargshrhkc but we have to do it. WE MUST RETAIN ZE TAITEL and I  can't wait for the new House Committee elections. Looking forward to see who will be running for captain and vice (ceh padahal dah semangat nak be free from all dis)

I will try my best to study this Semester, and giv it ol det aiv got (cue eye of the tiger + final coundown)

                   

                                                                 Yes this is Asil Aziz follow him on twitter @asilaziz

And oh yeah! Maria Elena Zarul (if you don't know her she's a blogger and a vlogger on youtube go see her blog peliks.blogspot.com ) just got married. ARGH DOWN GILA I watched the video that was aired during her wedding, bapak cute gila la shal...... She's so cute and gila and awesome and funny and SMART (an engineer, graduated from UTP, 25 yrs old) omg who doesn't want to marry her? The perfect criteria most guys would want (and by most guys i meant me). Her husband seemed really nice so I wish the best for her in her life! But still down sikit ah en....

So yeah that is all for tanaight. This is a song for you guys because I haven't been here en so ni special sikit

Goodbye everyone! See you when I see you! x

Wey ada mcm Zayn Malik tak? Hot shal.

Wey lek

Keep calm and carry on.






Not what you expected?





k.

Feelings are stupid.

Now is not the time. I look forward to the day where i feel nothing. Kind of what Evie (from V for Vendetta) felt after she was tortured by V, without knowing it was V. She felt free, free from fear, from small emotions that may ruin one's day or anything gay like that. She was free.

Soon everything will be known, and i will be free.

Teman Pengganti

This is a song by Black feat. Malique. It is a very sad song, I can't explain it to you so you can read the lyrics here. Malique is a genius.


Ketawa bersama
Menangis bersama
Ku bersumpah harap kita
Mati pun bersama

Sejak dua menjak ini
Makin kerap ku diganggu visi
Bila celik, juga bila mimpi
Aku nampak kau, tapi bukan aku yang di sisi
Dia membelaimu dengan izin dan permisi
Sentuhan katanya semuanya kau iakan
Sentuhan jari kau diamkan dan biarkan
Aku redha walau tidak ku damba
Walau hampa semuanya dah dijangka

Beberapa purnama dulu cinta bertahta
Kenangan dibina kita indah belaka
Ketawa bersama, menangis bersama
Ku bersumpah harap kita mati pun bersama
Namun hakikatnya, bukan mudah
Aku sembunyikan gulana-gundah
Segalanya kan berubah
Dengarkan apa yang ku mahu luah

*Rahsia ini
Telah lama ku pendamkan
Tiba masanya
Segala-galanya
Ku ceritakan
Aku kan pergi
Pergi ku tak akan kembali
Tiba masanya
Kau cari teman pengganti

Dalam dunia yang maya, prejudis dan bias
Kita tak terlepas dari terkena tempias
Rimas, ditindas, sembunyi dalam puisi dan kias
Tidak kau bidas, tak berpaling walau sekilas
Hanya kau yang tahu kodeksku yang kompleks
Dalam disleksia cuba kekal dalam konteks
Bila dunia seolah tak memahami
Kau sudi selami, dalami dan mengalami

Setia mendengar, sentiasa hadir
Ingat setiap ulangtahun, setiap hari lahir
Tiba pagi Syawal, kaulah yang terawal
Syawal yang terakhir ini pasti rasa janggal
70 000 hijab harus ku singkap
Ku sorok kitab balik tingkap penjara hinggap
Dalam diam ada, seorang yang ku puja
Kau teristimewa tapi dia yang sempurna

Ulang *

Sejak dua menjak ini, ku mencari fungsi kewujudan
Dalam persekitaran yang penuh kejumudan
Terperangkap dalam jasad, ku keliru
Mujur ada kau si peneutralisasi pilu
Namun aku tetap murung, berkurung
Tubuh makin susut, menunggu tarikh luput
Komplikasi di halaman rusuk kiri
Makin sukar nak bernafas, nak bergerak, nak berdiri

Lagu ini yang terakhir aku sajikan
Kalau rindu nanti bolehlah kau nyanyikan
Jaga diri, jangan makan hati
Yang patah kan tumbuh, yang hilang kan berganti
Bilik dah ku kemas, katil dah ku rapi
Cincin, kunci, dompet dalam laci
Ada sikit wang, itu saja baki
Moga-moga cukup untuk majlis itu nanti

Aku kan pergi
Bertemu kekasih abadi
Tiba masanya
Kau cari teman pengganti

Freeman.

Officially loving Ingrid Michaelson! Oh My God her voice is awesome. I should get singing lessons. Or piano lessons. Or guitar lessons. Yes. I want them all! Oh yeah back to Ingrid Michaelson.

Oh my God she's so cute how can I not heard of her before. Ma bffz Najwa Adnan introduced her to me today. Look at her

OMG so cute she looks like she's in her early 20's but shes not......  She was born in 1979 so dats mean shes 33 now. 33 and still pretty. Here's one of her songs "You and I" from her 'Be Ok' album

I'm sure some of you who reads this blog will love her voice. Its so lovely! Ingrid Michaelson FTW

P.S. Happy?

Ipsen and Colin

[Zidane talking to Garnet.]

Zidane: "Nobody wants you to feel that way. They didn't do it all for you, either. Each was following his own path."

Garnet: "His own...path? Well, what about you?"

"Huh?"

"Why did you come with me?"

"Hey that's Ipsen's line."

"Ipsen? Who's that?"

"Ipsen is a character from a play, but he's a real life adventurer. I think the play is based on his adventures. It kind of goes like this... Ipsen and his good friend Colin worked at a tavern in Treno. One day Ipsen got a letter. The letter was so wet from rain that most of the writing was illegible. The only part he could read said:

'Come back home.'

Nowadays, we have airships and stuff, but back then, it was really hard to travel. he didn't know why he had to go back, but he got some time off, gathered his things, and set out on his journey home. he walked a thousand leagues through the Mist. Sometimes he was attacked by vicious monsters, but he made it, because his friend Colin was by his side.

And then, after much time on the road, he had to ask Colin something.

'Why did you come with me?'"

"And? What was Colin's answer?"

"Only because I wanted to go with you."

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Music 4lyf3

A few minutes ago, I watched a movie entitled "August Rush". I was driven to watch this movie when my friend, Hakim, said the song that my KYUEM senior, Kashif and my junior, Aidin performed during our End Of Sem Dinner, was inspired by this movie. This is the poster of the movie.

It was starred by Freddie Highmore, Keri Russell, Johnathan Rhys Meyers, Robin Williams and loads of other talented actors. I know I'm a bit late since this movie came out in 2007, but it just, blew me off.

I really don't understand why this movie only got a 7.4/10 rating on IMDb (The Internet Movie Database). Maybe, not everyone likes movies based on music. Maybe they prefer cheesy chick flicks over music, I don't know and I won't judge. This movie shows how music connects a son with his parents. I'm not giving anything away for those who haven't watched it so don't worry. 

The soundtracks were super good. The story line was good. It was perfect. At least for me. It really made me feel like I'm just, flying, listening to the music. Frankly, I love music very very much. I try to sing, I try to play the guitars, and I try to dance. Sadly I didn't receive the magical natural talent that some people have. I had to learn it by myself. I envy the kids who can afford music classes very much and I am very much pissed off at the ones who don't appreciate what they have. If I had the chance, I would give up college and learn music instead. I can do it all my life, until I die. I really would if I could. 

But I couldn't.

Responsibility. That's what keeping me alive through college. Even though it's hard, even though its not my main interest, I have to. If I'm just thinking of myself, I would rather join ASWARA (Akademi Seni Budaya dan Warisan) or some Music Academy in Malaysia. But, I can't. I must not be selfish. I thought of my parents, my brothers and sisters. I'm studying in college because of them, because of Allah.

In spite of all the hardships, music is still in my heart. I still learn new songs from time to time. I sing in my college, jam with my bros. Without it, I'd be lost. Everyone has their own music. Everyone has their own sound. 

"I believe in music... The way that some people believe in fairy tales." - 

                                                                               Freddie Highmore (August Rush, 2007)

Yeah bebi

Here I am to tell you a story about how the dead guy flew up in the air and caught a ball with his legs. At the beginning of the story the guy (lets name him Jack) Jack was jumping some rope. he loves jumping ropes. Usually girls jump ropes, but Jack wasn't a girl.

He was the boy who jumped rope.

While Jack was jumping rope, he looked to his right. He saw a glimpse of yellow light. He thought it was a shiny stuff. He was right. So he crouched, to take a closer look. What he saw was this

A white diamond shiny van. So magnificent, so maleficent, so vincent. He then took the shiny stuff and returned home, leaving his rope with no one jumping it. As soon as he got home, he hurried to his room, excited to uncover the mysteries that the shiny can might hold. Maybe it contains a genie, who lived thousands of years, waiting for him to relieve him of his prison. Or maybe it is the Mystery Machine in the Scooby Doo series, covered in fake diamonds, or real diamonds, he suppose. He didn't know, so his curiosity got over him. He wanted to know. He needed to know. Tell him baby girl coz he need to know.

He went down to the garage at the back of his house to get some tools and stuff. He took out some screwdrivers, pliers, hammers, Mjolnir, the works. Anything that he can use to achieve his lifelong dream. Okay this wasn't his life- okay I don't know why I'm typing this. Let's continue.

He grabbed the pliers, trying to take the wheel off. But, he thought to himself: "the van looks nice."

He stopped, and left the van as it is, and strutted off to continue jumping rope.

This was a story of the boy who jumped rope.

KYUEM

It's almost the end of my 2nd semester here. Which means its the end of our senior's 4th semester. Their last. KYUEM is the place where you mingle around with everyone, not segregating seniors or juniors. I was in a boarding school and juniors don't mix with seniors, and they to bagi salam each time they pass by us, and call us 'abang' and so on. But in KY, everything's different.

We literally have to mix with seniors because we live in a house system, where all students are divided into four houses like the one on Harry Po'er. Yes Harry Po'er. I sounded Bri'ish don't 'ai. Anyway, the seniors will have to work together with  us to win inter-house events, where the points will be accumulated to determine which house deserves the House Cup. Nais nais nais.

Throughout my 2 semesters here, we did everything with the seniors. They are awesome friends. They don't treat us like 'juniors', they treat us like equals. We hang out together, we dine together, we sing songs together, we jam, we watch movies together, we crack jokes together, study together, played games together and a whole lot of other things. We are bros. Now here's a song I dedicate to the male seniors.

It's sad to realize that they are leaving us. Before, we see them everyday, walk past them on the walkway, they will smile every time they see us, say hi to us. They treat us like family.

We can't do anything about it, they are moving on, past A Levels and one step further to their dream university, their future. Soon, all of us will have to do the same. It is a phase that every student goes through. I do hope we will still be in contact with the seniors, both 13.0  and 13.5's. I won't mention names, because all of you guys are awesome.

Yes. I did take the photo from Zchii. Credits to Zchii for le photos. I can't seem to find any photos of all the batch 13.5 seniors though. Sorry in advance.

Without you guys, we won't survive in this jungle. 

We love you guys. Don't ever forget us.

Late night propagandas

"Unnngghhhh" said Krispy Kreme, at the end of his famous 'The Baddest' video. It reached almost 200,000 views in a few months. Here's a link to the video, KRISPY KREMEEEEEE . I highly suggest that you guys watch it, as he's the baddest of them all.

Its 2 minutes to 2am, I'm here writing this down maybe because I don't have early classes next morning (Its block 336), I'm not sleepy or, I am a were-owl.

Okay that was lame.

Anyway, lets not talk about problems, how you are sad, and how you are living in this cruel world with no one to love and everyone hates you and shit. Stop that crap.

Yes, a lot of people hate you. Yes, you annoy the shit out of everybody. Yes, you are a fat shitface that were never better than anyone else. You are all of that. Everything that those people say about you behind your back is true. For example, in the movies, when people hate each other they ignore each other. But what if everyone, at the same time, hate you? For example, you live in a community of 500 people, and 499 of them hates you. What do you do? Do you hate them back? Do you give up and leave the community, try to start over? Kill yourself?

If you even thought of one of those ways to end your misery, you are a loser. A frikkin loser that have no guts, no balls to even do something about it.

What people fail to see nowadays is that you have to face yourself. You know yourself better than anyone else, no one else knows what's in your heart, in your mind, unless you meet Professor X or Jean Gray heh heh heh, k. Have you ever heard of the saying "You cannot please everyone"? This is true. You can never please every single people. But, yes there's a but. But, you have to try. Some people just go ape shit and say "Oh, I don't do this to please you, I can't please everyone, and as long as I'm happy." Wtfasdfasfkmlsburger.  Wrong. You have to first try to be happy, without displeasing anyone.

When people (let's name him B) do stuff like making loud noise while rooting for their football team (example), yes. B have no intention of displeasing others, B only thought of B's happiness, excitement and what not, and not even a single fck was given to others. When other's do the same when B's studying or anything, he gets mad. You see the point?

You can be happy. Happiness is for everyone. But, you have to think of others too. Unless you live in your own world, to be more specific, you have mental problems where you can't think anymore. You live, to please others actually. For Muslims, you live to please Allah S.W.T. For others, you live to please your own  God. You have to please your boss. You have to please your friends. You have to please your parents by getting good grades in school, and most importantly, you have to please yourself.

Uh that was far away from the first point, so back to the first point. Sit back, think, and somebody, what did you do wrong. Where's the hate coming from. Once you figure it out, try to beat it. Haters are the ones making you stronger. For artists like Justin Bieber or Usher (I can't think of any other artists right now so don't judge me.) their haters actually pointed out where they did wrong, and where they should improve, even though the language they used wasn't as subtle as cream cappuccino. Take criticism, and use it to fix yourself.

I don't know I even thought about writing this post at this time (2.48am). Maybe its cliche and all, but I think this is quite important. I learned this in my years in school, through my experiences, my friend's experiences and maybe movies and video games. Mostly video games. K no its experiences.

Video games. I don't know.

Confidence

Some people find it hard to be confident. I was once a shy person too. But out of nowhere, confidence embraced me. I'll tell you my story later.

To me, extreme shyness is a disease. Some people can't seem to even look at other people because of their shyness. They think they are inferior to other people. This leads to a lot of hopes and dreams not achievable. You've seen teen movies with dudes that are shy, he didn't let the girl know how he feels, and loses the girl to some dumb jerk right? Also, a girl (I didn't want to be called sexist so, yeah.) who lost a promotion in her workplace because she wasn't confident enough to seize the opportunity that her boss gave her. Well this is an easy example of what we are trying to avoid.

Improve Your Physical Appearance, dude. This is very clear. Fat people don't always get what they want because of their physical appearance. Yes, everyone have the right to be happy as they are, but, you have to think in a bigger picture. If you were the boss/interviewer/customer/designer/male/female/atheist or any person in the whole wide world, if you have to choose between two extremely good lawyers, with the same personality, same grades, same great ideas, same everything, and the only difference is their physical appearance, who would you choose?

You would choose the fit one rather than the fat one, of course.

Go out! Be healthy, do some sports a few days a week and work out some sweat. If you don't feel healthy, you can't live your live to the fullest. Improving your outer game DOES improve your inner game. 


Expand Your Comfort Zone. Do you even know why you're shy? It's because you don't dare to be confident. You fear the bad things that  might happen (People laughing at you, being scolded, etc.) This pessimistic thinking, this fear is what stopping you from being confident. So how do we overcome fear? You face it.

Do you think public speakers have the balls to go in front and talk non stop for 15 minutes on their first time?  No frikkin hell. They practice, repeatedly. They go out multiple times until they get used to it, get comfortable with speaking in front of an audience. So try everything that you once fear, get comfortable, and  gain confidence laik a mafaka.

I would write more stuff, but my I'm typing this since 4am so, yeah. 

p.s: 3. Get it? PS3? The video game console? Oh damn I'm hilarious.

Mine and mine alone.

This is a blog. Yes it is.

I'll fill this blog with magical things that comes out of my head, anything that I think of, that I feel interesting. Yes anything. This is my blog, my fantasy, my imagination.

I secretly wish that I'm good in writing.